It has been a precious and thankful experience. I would like to thank our Lord who faithfully trained me during the past three years, and thank those of you who took part of my journey here in London. My studies in London and joining God’s Vision Church was all part of God’s clear plan. And as He had planned, I have learned and gained a lot during my time here.
Even though I had been born into a Christian family, and blessed with faithful parents, before coming to London I was a somewhat rebellious Christian. If God knows everything, surely my prayer won’t be able to change anything. While I diligently attended church, my prayers became scarce and I didn’t have any qualms about disobeying the Holy Spirit. This was still the case when I had arrived in London, but I hid these rebellious thoughts and continued to go to church and served in the way that I had learned as a child.
As I continued to struggle with a heart filled with disobedience and empty pursuit of holiness, one day, a thought came to my head: ‘I just don’t want to live like this any longer’. God had already found me in the place that I had forced to be since I was young. God had rebuilt the relationship I had with Him through the Sunday Services that I regularly attended, taught me through the Praise Team the attitude I was to have towards worship, helped me learn about His love through my cell group, and revealed to me through the B2 course that He had always been with me. He didn’t stop there – He helped me pray again through the Wednesday Services, led me to resolve to live a life led through the Holy Spirit, and strengthened the relationship I had with Him through our morning meditation sessions.
Following His faithful guidance helped me learn the true peace and joy that comes from walking with Him. It also helped me learn how painful our lives can be while we lack such things. The further I walked with Him, the harder it became to disobey the Holy Spirit. In the past, I was able to live on a week of my life, and even longer, without relying on Him at all – but now, as I’ve quoted in the title, I can’t live a day without Him. So I started organising my life in a way that enabled myself to walk with Him each day. I resolved to become closer to Him. And as I did such things, my desire to love Him and learn more about His heart became stronger – and with thanks I am spending the last few days I have in London.
Though still inadequate, though I still stumble, and though I still need more training, I leave London with the mindset of a solider that has been trained for three years. I am excited yet anxious facing this new chapter of my life and faith, but I will be the letter of Christ, and the aroma of Christ in all situations and will breakthrough with prayer, the Holy Spirit and praise. I thank the Lord as I have a lot of people in London that I will miss – in fact, I already miss them. Even though it feels like I am leaving my home, I will continue to pray for God’s Vision Church, and that it may continue to train God’s soldiers and extend the boundaries of His Kingdom in the middle of the UK and central London. 🙂
